After sharing this story to the public, there was more I wanted to add to the story. As much as I don’t know why I lost my hearing, I have settled with a general conclusion. When I step back and look at my entire life so far, there has been a significant amount of stress early on. And I can’t help but wonder if I was able to recognize that stress and minimize it, would I still be in the same position I am now – with only one functioning ear. My nervous system was in over-drive, my loss of hearing was my bodies cry for help (As I like to think).
I’m continuing with this post because even though it was miserable, I learnt a lot about myself. I learnt how to love myself, I can truly say that I am my favourite person to hang out with. Being at peace with your own company is probably one of the most rewarding things. I learnt confidence and self-expression. You never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have. Constantly throughout the past 11 months, people have been condoling me on my hearing loss, telling me how sorry they are. But it is up to me to be the positive optimistic one and say “Oh, it’s alright everything happens for a reason!”. As much as I have grown to hate that sentence, it is very true. When one door closes, another one always open. This entire experience has taught me to live day-to-day with a positive mind-set. And it is truly life changing. Teach yourself that being angry, benefits no one. Especially doesn’t benefit you. Same thing for stress. Of course, it’s easier said than done, but eventually it will just be natural.
Anyways, that is all I wanted to add on for today. <3